Dear Writer

Dear Writer,

I write because I enjoy it. Are you the same way? I think it takes a lot of effort to put together a sentence, a paragraph, a blog post, an article and an essay. Do you spend a lot of time writing? I know this blogI started called, was made because I had a blog before but got sick of writing the same thing. Now, I’ll write whatever comes to mind, but I still try to stay towards the general topics people seem to like. Perhaps, that’s a bad thing in some aspects, but people read what they want too. Have you ever stopped writing? I know at times I get annoyed by it. I’ll try to think of something to talk about and end of erasing most of everything that I’ve put down. I’ve said this in the blog I write, but I’m a huge perfectionist. I just want to write something that people will enjoy, is that a bad thing? Also, I think blogging is kind of cool too. It’s a fun time to be able to write about things that you like, and I encourage you to start one if you haven’t yet. I think it would be really cool to write a book one day, just not to sure what I’d write one about. Perhaps, a fiction piece? Or about a certain aspect of my life, like my relationship with my girlfriend? Anyway, thanks for reading this letter. I hoping you’re having a good day/night wherever you are and that you continue to keep writing.



When I’m Not Blogging

When I’m not blogging, I’m probably doing a bunch of different things. When college is going on, my days consist of classes, homework, spending time with my girlfriend, and hanging out with friends as well. When college isn’t happening and I’m on break, probably with family. The one thing I didn’t put on that list was playing video games, so why not talk about that?

On the weekends during college, I typically spend the day doing homework. Once 7 pm comes around, I start playing video games and stream on Twitch. I guess that’s something that I haven’t really talked about, so let’s talk about that. Streaming on Twitch has been a part of my life since late 2012 or early 2013. I’m not exactly sure when that started, but it did. Throughout that time, I’ve gone through like three or four Twitch channels, until I found the one I have now.

I’ll admit, I haven’t really been streaming too much anymore because of various reasons. First, blogging is becoming more of a hobby for me, and it’s enjoyable. Second, streaming was a large part of my life for awhile, and I feel like I go through these points where I’ll be really into something, and then not. I quit streaming a few times and have always come back to it because I really love interacting with people that come by.

This would also be a good time to say I make YouTube videos as well. Also, quit that a few times too because once I quit streaming, why make YouTube videos? Honestly, I don’t even have an answer to that because it doesn’t make sense to just delete both.

So why did I get sick of streaming? Well, I play Call Of Duty a lot and quick scope. I’d say I’m pretty average, but I always want to be better. At the same time, it takes a serious amount of effort to stream every single day, and I used to do that. But, I’ve slowed way down because I think it was just too much for me. I’m not saying I don’t still enjoy it, but I try to stream just on the weekends. It works really good with my girlfriend’s schedule too because like I said, she works weekends, and I like spending as much time with her as I can.

So that’s pretty much what I do when I’m not blogging. That may change this upcoming quarter because I want to get a job and make some money. But for now, that’s my life outside of blogging. Just a college student, boyfriend, gamer, friend, boyfriend and trying to live life.

Being Away From My Girlfriend Sucks

I’ve been away from my girlfriend since the 16th of March. Although I like time to myself, it gets to be pretty lonely being away from her. I went from seeing her most weekdays to not at all and that makes the time apart seem really long.

I’m headed back to college tomorrow, and I’m pretty excited. Even though my girlfriend works weekends, I’ll be able to see her again on the weekdays. Also, I’m kind of over spring break and can’t wait until the next quarter starts again.

Tomorrow is my first time driving to the university I’ve been going to for over a year, and that’s going to kind of scary. I haven’t really been driving at all for two years,  and it’s a three-hour drive from my parent’s house. Hopefully, I won’t get lost.

With all that said, distance is kind of good for relationships. You feel the separation when you are apart, and it makes me want to be back in college already. I’m not saying I’m some sort of professional relationship person, just really have missed my girlfriend.





The Reason I Want To Blog Every Day

I wrote a blog post titled “My Blog Goals For The Next Four Years.” In it, I said that I wanted to try to blog every day for a few years. However, I did mess up yesterday and didn’t post anything.

Blogging every day is a challenge, and that’s why I want to do it. I think that if you practice anything for a long time, you are destined to get better at it. Also, I’d like to become a better blogger, and hopefully make some income from it in the future. I have a dream of doing this as a job.

It seems like I’m developing more of this pattern where I will write something and then delete it. I even write a sentence or a paragraph and go back and erase that too, a lot. If you look at my blog post titled “I Write Because I Love it,” I said writing will make my head hurt because of trying to think of different ways to say everything. With that said,  it’s becoming more difficult as I blog every day.

I think I’m chasing perfection, and it’s stupid. I made this blog to write whatever I want and I should just write whatever the heck I want. Even if it’s just complaining about how I couldn’t think of a blog post yesterday.

I’m not sure what the rules are for blogging, but if I’m just talking about myself and not someone else, don’t think anyone is going to be pissed off if I say this is hard. I’ve literally been trying to put this blog post together for an hour.

Blogging every day might be one of the hardest goals I strive to achieve, but I want to do it. It’s a goal that is going to be a pain in the butt, but hopefully, it’s worth it.

It’s Time For Me To Work Out

Lately,  my confidence feels like it has been dropping. Not exactly sure what the reason for that is but I finally lifted some weights today. Nothing too crazy, just a few sets of different things but I can already tell you I’m a lot more confident than I was before doing that.

Working out seemed to ease my temper a lot when I was in my earlier twenties, and before I stopped doing it as much. Now, it appears like I got a better grip on my anger but I’m just not as confident anymore. Constantly I will overthink everything, and I’m starting to think that’s because of not working out as much as I used too.

The sad part is that I had a new years resolution of working out again. That’s failed but something today made me want to workout again. My girlfriend and I were texting, and I asked her if it was okay for me to blog at her place since I want to start spending the night there Monday thru Thursday. A little bit after saying that, I mentioned that I need to start working out again, and if I were her I’d be annoyed because I ask stuff like that all the time. It’s frustrating because there is hardly any confidence in me, and It’s probably best to work out.

Not only is it the confidence, though, but it’s also my image, I don’t like it. I’m not one to judge others, but I judge myself constantly. I look in the mirror and see how big my stomach is, and think it would be a good idea to keep with this. Perhaps, writing about it will help too.



Tips For Blogging Late At Night

For me, blogging at night is difficult. My thoughts don’t always go together, and I may spend a longer time on a blog post because I get frustrated. However, I figured I would offer some advice that may help others that are dealing with this as well.

First off write, and keep writing. I have so many drafts of blog posts that I’ve written and then stopped, and that is something that I’m trying to get better at. See if you can force yourself to finish a post and even if it takes a little longer. I think it’s better to finish what your writing than just erasing it most times. Plus, it just feels good to get it done.

Use caffeine wisely but don’t drink a ton of it. For reference, I talked about how coffee helps me write in this blog post titled “I blog and write better with coffee.” With that said, try a little bit of caffeine like one cup of coffee and see if it helps you put your ideas down faster. If you don’t like coffee or caffeine, drink some water instead and see if that helps (Not sure if it will cause I don’t drink water much, but worth a shot).

Sit up when you write. Even if you are laying in bed, put your back against a pillow and sit up. See if it helps because it seems to help me and I write in bed all the time.

Continue writing your idea or ideas, the best you can. Even if it’s garbage and you have to go back and edit it, try to get all your thoughts down as fast as you can.

Go back and read it over. A lot of times when I publish a blog post, I have to go back and change things that I’ve screwed up on. So, make sure you read it over and edit for things you think you could have said better.

Last, if you’re still having problems go to bed. Just the other day, I was trying to write a blog post at midnight, and after erasing two to three drafts of blog posts, I went to bed. Sometimes, you just got to sleep and try again tomorrow.

I Blog And Write Better With Coffee

I don’t know what it is, but coffee makes me write and blog better. Perhaps, it’s the caffeine or the routine I’ve gotten into where if I’m doing homework, I must have some coffee nearby. Yeah, I think it’s just a habit I’ve gotten into and have to say, it’s a great tasting one.

I’m not sure how you like your coffee, but I enjoy mine without anything added to it. I know some people think that is gross, I just believe that it tastes good. Soon as I taste the coffee, I’m like woohoo let’s go! Weird enough, I haven’t been drinking much of it because I think I’ve been trying to just not rely on it as much.

About a year or two ago, I was drinking like three to five cups a day. I don’t know if that is okay for you or not, but figured it was probably a good idea to stop drinking as much. With that in mind, I’ve been drinking more soda, and that’s not good either. It’s probably time I start drinking more coffee and drink some freaking water. I don’t drink water really at all, and that’s not okay.

I think it’s just a habit of mine to have coffee while doing homework or things that I need to be focused on to do. Maybe, I find it easier to concentrate when I drink a little bit of coffee or at least have a bit of caffeine. On the other side of that, I don’t really like energy drinks because they make me really hyper than tired. I guess they also make me focused but it’s just not the same as coffee to me. The slightly more focused is better than being extremely focused and than falling asleep after a few hours.